11 October 2006

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog. I know there might not be someone that want to read this, but I guess it's all mine so I wouldn't care. We are having some bad air here in Singapore, it's even worst back there in Kuching. Meanwhile, life has been poluted by these bad air quality too I guess. It's so demoralising when I'm still stucked at work everyday with tiring and boring lifestyle.

I was wondering about my new begining. A starting point for another life of mine just can't seen to appear so soon. I waited and waited. I know there is no expiry date for this but I am so impatient now. I want it to happen sooner. Loneliness is still my closest friend. Unlimited amount of complaints are filling my mind. They are killing my patience and my determination.

What do I need now? Where am I standing? I know what life is. But I can't seem to find the right one for myself.. What should I do to make it right?

There are so many things I don't want to leave behind here. I guess I need a lot of courage for this. Leaving behind some friends, family and feeling... I am eagle to fly away, try my luck in another place far far out there for a better and challenging life. That's why flying away is in my mind. New begining might be hard but I guess I shall feel the freshness from there.

What I wonder today..?
What I want for life..?
What I will get..?
I am doubtful..
I am lost..

It's been so long since I think of all these life topics.. I am not sure what the future would be..but i struggle so hard for a better life, looking for the answer that sactisfies my point of view and dream.. I will stay cool... I know I will..