The Prince Day...

I declared the 1st day of February each year,
as The Prince Day (My Day),
people that knows me would know about this.
A day that I am reborned again,
for another challenging year,
for another chapter of new begining,
since 1982...
over and over again...

It is always been a great day,
that I would enjoy....
As time flies,
I grow..
As I grow,
I learn to cherish more..
more of my pass.
more of my present,
more of what I am expecting for my future..

This is the day,
the day that I always think of life.
As I have always trying to figure out,
the true meaning of life,
and I realise that age is just a number.
Life does not depend on these numbers,
only us,
ordinary human does...
We judge everything by numbers.
It does not help to measure thing the way it is in realistic,
it's just helping us to imagine by comparison.

Another day is awaiting,
another chance is approaching.
I want to have a better life,
I want to chase my dream,
I would fight for what I deserved,
I can be better and better...
Starting from this Prince Day..
I know I will...

(for my birthday, I want to thank my friends, I wish to share that I will be better and better with all your wishes and cares surrounding me. I enjoy every single moment as I know that you are always here for me..I love my life as I love you too....)

Written by,
Terence C.W.T..

1st Feb 2007

Our Staff Party 22 Jan 2007

Everyone in my company was wearing a mask gathering in a club for our annual staff party. To me it means more like a farewell party because I know that this is going to be the last staff party for some of my fellow colleagues..

I am happy for the gathering but at the same time upset for the leaving. I am quite sure that I am kind of too emotional when talk about friends leaving me. After all we had been working together for a year plus.. I always cherish the moment that we are together and I wish you all the best no matter where you go. I will be good and I will learn more and be strong. Thanks for the time we spent together and also thanks for the things you taught me. I will always remember you as my dearest colleagues and friends. I will miss you!! Don't forget me!!

(People meet and people leave in our life. I always think that eventhough some of them left, they stay in my heart and mind. I always remember those who exist in my life simply because I care about them, and i cherish the relationship. To the someone that is leaving, I will think of you often. Great memories live in my heart till the day it stops beating...I miss ya!!)

Terence C.W.T... with Loves...

Thoughts...

Some thoughts that I would like to share here with my friends or anyone that read this. I know there is no perfection in this world. God creates human with flaws.. May be God never even created us, hmmm... what do you think?(no offence to those with strong believe)

Life is always hard, I always think that it's the journey that's important to us. We are all borned with flaws. I don't believe in perfection, this is because it doesn't exist at all. I am not trying to create chaos in your mind, but we have to accept the truth that human natual is sometimes tumbling to the ugly side. We make mistakes in life but the main point is not to blame on what we had done, it's just part of the journey that we must go through. After all we learn from it. When I say I don't believe in perfection, I don't mean that we should not try to be better anymore. Human is confused in a way. We are all unique in a way. What I am trying to point out is nobody has exactly the same thinking as it's depending on time and conditions.

Variention explains the best in this point. That is why some people complains about what the others wear in teh street and he or she never thought that there are also someone else think the saem ways towards them. We can never expect everyone to like the same thing. You might be a fans of Madonna and I might just prefer Christina better. You may prefer still wearing beggy jeans while skinny jeans is the latest fashion "must have". It all depend..

Sometimes it's our natual to complain about things that we don't like but we will never know that at the same time the other people might be okay with it. Mental and emotion play an important part here too. That is why it makes everyone different. No matter how good you are, you are still borned with flaws. I am sure that we can not change it. Just don't think too much about this issue, live your own life as you should be responsible to your concience.

Remember that no one is perfect and outer form does not guarantee inner beauty in term of judging someone. I believe this!! People always takes things for granted, this is our flaw. But life goes on. There is no perfection but it doesn't mean that we should not try to acheive a better humanity. Whoever and whatever you are, stay nice and be a person with great inner beauty. That's what I mean by a meaningful life..


Written by,
Terence C.W.T.

Year-end sickness (welcoming Spring)..

It's always blue when it comes to end of a year,

sadness, depressed, lonliness...

Normally I count the days I had wasted,

sigh for the foolish moment I had..

This year is a year full of adventure.
I lost granny during Chinese New Year,

Flew back to work in Singapore,

after my only "celebration" back to hometown.

March was the most challenging month,

For MOSAIC M.F.,

but I got to watch Jason Mraz in concert,

I learnt a lot from the busy month,

gain lot of experience at work too,

slowing down after that.

Most wonderful July,

Yes, the FIFA World Cup in Germany,

I enjoyed..

SO much..

I was there in Europe...

Germany and France!!

My unforgettable journey,

imagine Eiffel Tower,

it was so nice, exciting and novel,

different culturals,

different lifestyles,

different climates,

different colours..

Dream ended,

busy again,

BayBeat(July) was another busy month,

from the experience I gained,

it's getting easy but still lot of hard work..

Store reallocation was another big thing,

new environment,

new styles,

new location,

the only thing remains is old people..

moving on..

My first trip to Bangkok, Thailand.

Hot and crowded,

my only description,

friendly people,

softly speaking and wonderful massage,

I enjoyed..

again another journey..

It was actually a good year to me,

forgetting about all those sad issues,

I mean of course..

Life continues,

people age,

Spring is always ahead,

however Autumn and Winter are still waiting...

It goes on and on....

Hope the coming year is better for me, for my family, my friends, my planet Earth and my future...Welcome 2007, I will venture it all!!

Written by,

Prince T.C.W.T..

Bangkok, Thailand (28 Nov 06~1 Dec 2006)

One of the common scence in the city, traffic jam. Building on the left is probably the tallest building here in Thailand.

See.. I am here.. Thailand! Thailand!

Magnificent Gold in colour!

I visited the legendary Giant Sleeping Buddha!

The Grand Palace!!

Mushroom trees all around?? Nice Bonsai..

Magnificent...

remembering that I was there...

This few days trip again had enlarged my sight and knowledge. About human civilisation, cultural, life style and definately the wonderful Thai dishes.. I am glad the trip brought me so much experience and knowledge and advantures. Certainly I will visit Thailand again.. Thanks to Joerg, my friend showing me around. I was always misundertsood as a Thai boy that few days, therefore I wear these shirts and tie to show a little bit of differences haha!! Also thanks to the foot massagers that gave me such a wonderful and relaxing foot massage session!! Kopkoonkap!

Time...

Time is the most important thing in life.
perhaps every part of life..
As we are getting older and older each day,
as we step every footstep,
forward or backward.
As the second hand of the clock ticks,
as my fingers hit every character on the keyboard,
as our eyes blink for moisture,
as the sun rises and sets at the horizon.

No matter what,
time keeps updating..
We can only follow,
sometimes we pause,
sometimes we slower down,
we slack..
Yet time keeps going..

I can't think of a way to stop time,
I can't think of a way to turn it back.
so I keep going,
slack sometimes,
slower down sometimes,
pause sometimes...

So when? when does it end?
the answer is infinite..
therefore I keep walking,
I keep blinking my eyes,
I keep pondering days and nights,
and I am still here..
living as what I am..

Written by,
Terence c.w.t..
14 Nov 06

time never rest, we do.. I keep looking forward and back, as I realise the movement..

11 October 2006

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog. I know there might not be someone that want to read this, but I guess it's all mine so I wouldn't care. We are having some bad air here in Singapore, it's even worst back there in Kuching. Meanwhile, life has been poluted by these bad air quality too I guess. It's so demoralising when I'm still stucked at work everyday with tiring and boring lifestyle.

I was wondering about my new begining. A starting point for another life of mine just can't seen to appear so soon. I waited and waited. I know there is no expiry date for this but I am so impatient now. I want it to happen sooner. Loneliness is still my closest friend. Unlimited amount of complaints are filling my mind. They are killing my patience and my determination.

What do I need now? Where am I standing? I know what life is. But I can't seem to find the right one for myself.. What should I do to make it right?

There are so many things I don't want to leave behind here. I guess I need a lot of courage for this. Leaving behind some friends, family and feeling... I am eagle to fly away, try my luck in another place far far out there for a better and challenging life. That's why flying away is in my mind. New begining might be hard but I guess I shall feel the freshness from there.

What I wonder today..?
What I want for life..?
What I will get..?
I am doubtful..
I am lost..

It's been so long since I think of all these life topics.. I am not sure what the future would be..but i struggle so hard for a better life, looking for the answer that sactisfies my point of view and dream.. I will stay cool... I know I will..

Another Chapter of life

I am doubtful about the meaning of love sometimes. It happens to my best friends right in front of my eyes. It shocked me that their love is actually hurting them. Isn't 'Love' supposed to be wonderful? Isn't it supposed to be making a great and delightful discovery of our lives?

Experiences of life is unmeasureable, love is only part of all these. But it happens to be one of the most important element of life. I know that it hurts sometimes but it somehow cures. I guess after all it's all depends on how we determine the meaning deep in our very own heart, just like how we determine the meaning of our lives and living.

Sometimes I wonder, why am I doing all these? Writting about my thoughts.. Not that I am expert or what, but for everyone out there, life is too short for us to waste. Try thinking of all the people striving for lifes when they suffer from brutal sickness. No matter how painful they are, they strive their very best for survival. This is what I saw from my own sister. She was so young and innocent. Suffering from bone cancer was really a big tragedy for her and my whole family. After we lost her for years, I realised that life should be filled with love. I was young and I didn't understand how much it impacts on my life. Now that I know I should had given more love to my beloved sister but it's all too late (weep). I regret!

For people who are still there with their love one, I hope you cherish them. Don't live your life with such regrets after lossing them. Indulge yourselves in your life and love. Be responsible to the people around you and to yourself. It's not a difficult task but a simply thought and move to achieve. When it's time to let go, let it go.. It can be beautiful sometimes rather than to stay hurt. Love can be so great.. I believe..!!

for the someone out there, I know I am not expect being a judge of what life and love mean. But at least I learn to cherish it and live it with pride.. It's really so sad to have any regrets from any chapter of our life. The most important thing is we are responsible for our own life and we do it with a simple thoughts of loving. Love can be greater that way I believe!


Written by,
Terence c.w.t.
12 Aug 06

As Simple as Cactus..

Nowadays, life seems to be more complicated. As we develop and improve our lifestyle, expectation rises, in the meantime we add complicacy to life without our knowledge.

I found simplicity from my journey last few weeks... it's a lovely cactus belonging to my friend. This cactus sits in the vase a little bit slanted to the window getting light from the warm sun each day. As we live, we always try very hard to make things better and we ask for more. From there, we add complicacy to our life. Cactus needs only water, air and light to live, and it sits there peacefully. I found serenity and simplicity. This cactus looks so adorable here by its' simplicity and the way it lives its' life by just looking out the window...

From Nature, we can actually learn a lot. From this cactus, I realise that life needs to be simplify sometimes.. It's supposed to be easy.. it's simply life..

Written by Terence
22nd July 2006

It's Crazy...
"Football's coming home..."
"We are the champion my friends..."
"Ole ole ole ole.."

All this were sang here.. They are getting frenzy here.. Temperature is HOT .. Everyone is cheering. Flag are raised, a toast of a glass of the German beer! It's crazy! Everyone just cheer for their team winning 5-3(by penalty kicks).. I joined the crowd and it was fun.. Just like a parade here during national day..

it continued until night.. I am talking about late at night. Even it's almost 3am.. You can imagine.. Bottle glasses everywhere..Smashed!! Yo!! Scoccer Rock!! FIFA World Cup!! Rock!!

Written by,
Terence C.W.T..

Germany Finally...

My thought,
my feeling,
and even my whole body is here now.

It's such a fantastic moment,
stepping on the German ground,
that everything seems so different here.
I keep myself smilling like a psycho,
whenever I am now..
It's sound silly but it's truth.

I can't wait to explore this land.
can't wait to see more.

Excitement strikes me each minute...

Written by,
Terence C.W.T..
in Heidelberg, Germany
29th June 2006

MAybe SOmedays

I keep dreamming each day,
listening to the echo to bounce back,
pondering the unexpected,
hugging the unrealistic,
preparing for my sadness to strike...

MAybe somedays...
I will be free like the flying seabird,
fly up high searching for a real dream,
indulged in the ocean breeze,
heading to the new horizon.

MAybe somedays...
You will hold me tight like no others,
fill my heart with all the realities,
whispering the words with romance,
tune up the love songs in my heart,
shower me with blissful moment.

I realised my sadness,
I forgotten them,
I found friends,
I cherish them...

MAybe somedays...
I will be happier than now,
I believe in it..

Written by,
Terence C.W.T.

Far Away

You are somewhere there far away,
now it's further..
I am confused about your return,
in a sudden it's closer again.
Many thoughts in my mind,
I can't manage to configure..

In dream I believe,
but reality kills my believing.
You are really far out there,
further than I ever thought.
too far that can hardly be seen..

I choose to let go sometimes,
I know it hurts staying stubborn,
I wanted to keep you in mind,
your reply seems disagreeing me..
with all the time I had wasted on waiting.
but I don't mind..
I was hurt,
and now I learnt.
It seems like growing but I am still childish.
*I guess..

After all,
I figured out this,
it's all about the paths that I went through,
the memories I had,
it stays in my heart,
sometimes hurts but,
sometimes sweeten my day..
No matter how far away,
you are still there,
right there in my mind..

It works..
I know I loved,
and still love but in a different form..
it's probably "Luv"?
I dont know... but it works,
from me for you.. far away...I "Luv"..

Written by,
Terence C.W.T.
for the someone tha has return differently..

Is it so HARD?

No idea what hits my mind?
I somehow think that why is it so difficult to be me..
Dreamming is my daily routine,
I try so hard to be me,
it ended up with lots of confusions,
disturbing my peace and how I react my life.

Is it so HARD?
To feel the someone is thinking of me?
I doubt this..
Listening to a love song simply sadden me.
Where is the someone that I have been waiting for?
Again the no one hurts me..

unfinished.. continuations..moving ons..

written by,
T.C..

Lonely Again

It's another day.
I had been missing you for countless sunrises and sunsets.
there is no reply,
I am lonely again.

I counted sheeps at night lately,
once a while I began counting your name,
then I reminded myself to switch,
otherwise I would not sleep.

Where is the "you" that use to be?
why is there no replies?
What could you been doing that I am not awared?
which time zone are you in now?

All these questions just flooded my mind.
In a sudden I am lonely again...

Would it be no answers?

We found each other with joy,
spent moment with memories,
even dreamt of each other the same night.

I pay the stars to search for you,
far away from here..
no star returned..
no one had answered..
and then I am lonely again..

I told the sea to send my messages,
no wind returned with any smells,
no wave returned with a bottle,
no echo reflected with your voice,
ONce again I am lonely again...

(To the someone whom he misses. Too far away that he can't reach. He tries so hard but yet no replies. He waited and waited.. Loneliness keeps him accompanied. Days and nights...)

Written by Terence c.w.t.