Only if you let me..

I wish for a pair of wings,
Flying there to you,
Holding you in arms,
Till the darkness comes.
Only if you let me..

I wish for a sacred portion,
Cast a spell to our situation,
Make things turn real,
Till we really see what we feel.
Only if you let me..

I wish for a magic mirror,
Reflecting everything as dream,
Showing our path with light,
Till the morning sun shines up bright.
Only if you let me..

I wish that I could give you my heart,
Beating the music of sincerity,
Emerge the care I wish to share,
Till love creates us a wonderful affair.
Only if you let me..

Writen by

Tere

I could only wish...

Missed, Miss, Missing..

I am residing in a call,
The call of uncertainty,
Missing you has been a routine,
Wondering the possibilities.

I am caught in a trouble,
The trouble of anxiety,
Longing you and I start to sing,
Venturing all the worries.

What can I do?
When I miss everything about you.
When I’m detained in the dream.
Of everyday becomes surreal.

What can I do?
When I miss everything about you.
When I’m lonely there at the corner.
Of excitement in the silence.

I can only send words,
When I’m here so helpless,
When I’m here so clueless,
When I’m here missing way too much..

(The missing gets so intensed.. I could only use words to lighten and ease.. To the someone I am missing way too much now.. I just hope that you are there.. there for me..)

Writen by,
Tere
at 52:18:09:16

Given Love..

I had given you my love,
I won’t take it back.
As my love reaches you,
It stays and never runaway.

I had given you my love,
I don’t want it back.
As my love stays with you,
It can only grow this great.

I had given you my love,
I can’t bring it back.
As my love is given,
It would always be a present.

It hurts sometimes,
When I am missing you,
But I am willing to subside the pain,
Until the emerging of peace in my brain.

If confusion strikes,
I would tear and I would try to runaway,
But once I had given you my love,
I always wish for your happiness.

When jealousy is near,
I struggle and I wish that you are clear,
But once I had given you my love,
I would cry but I let you go with the flowing tears.

Once I had given you my love,
It’s ok that I am hurt,
Because I love,
Because I love,
Because I had given you my love…

(As I had given my love.. I won't take it back and I won't hate because I want it to be there with you like always. I wish for your happiness, and I told you that you will always in my mind, in my prayers.. I felt sad sometimes without getting my love in return but I will find the peace and balance.. because once I had given you my love, it's yours... )

Written by,
TEre
21 June 2011
(3 months after I met you...)

just too late I guess...

Never thought there is sweet time,
It was fun, I was mesmerized,
Since when did time start drawing that line?
If I don’t love,
Why did the sweet time turn alkaline?

You said I should stop looking,
Loving you the way you are,
I guess I am not the one anymore,
If I don’t love,
Why is the jealousy so sour and sore?

Stop my sadness I don’t want to cry,
But I am helpless it’s never a lie,
I know I am naïve this I don’t deny,
If I don’t love,
Why are there tears in my eyes?

You said I am sweet,
Praising me the way I always need,
I ‘d rather be common than being sweet,
If I don’t love,
Why does your the word “sweet” hurt?

I don’t blame you.. I am just too late.. Don’t say sorry, don’t mention the word sweet.. It hurts with bitterness, sourness in my heart somehow..

Written by,
Tere
in a grey sky morning..

Summer 3.21...

Here you are two seasons changing,

lalala now it's summer then comes spring,

Far away I hear river flowing,

Birdies' singing while they are flying.

Here you are two people kissing,

lalala they are players yes they sting,

flower lures the bees with colourful blooming,

here they go, start the love making.

Summer arrives weather is bubbling,

couples hold hands and they start dancing,

clouds are jealous so they keep changing,

trees are moving I hear them mumbling.

Summer arrives there is a song to sing,

can't stop and the rhythm keeps coming,

it's not a dream it's not a dream,

I sense romance quietly approaching.

Enjoying kisses I am the richest,

filled with some sort of strange sweetness,

here you are appeared to be the cutest,

I will wait patiently for my happiness.

(3.21 summer time.. two people met.. it's considered a date.. mysterious future.. unpredictable dream.. here comes summer after the spring..)

written by,

TEre

for 3.21 summer 2011

Awaiting...

Awaiting the moment,
I will be patient,
In anticipation of the statement,
When I finally meet the expectation.

Would it be worthy?
Being sad being lonely,
In the room full of melancholy,
Rehearsing the film of agony.

Awaiting the moment,
I promise to be strong,
With you in heart nothing goes wrong,
But it does hurt every single second.

Would it be worthy?
Teasing joy with misery,
With true heart I was never this worry,
But your silence is totally killing me.

I just wish I could love you I am sorry,
With my simplest heart it is purely,
Asking just a response yes it's a plea,
Begging you to simply stop ignoring me.

(To the someone I am so scared to lose. Your ignorance is so cruel to my heart. My heart you once said you had taken and combined it with yours, as one. Your sudden silence and ignorance is torturing me. I seek nothing else but a reply. To answer my simplest question “why?”. You can kill me, but first you have to tell me the reason why I should be sentenced to death…Say you hate me now, and i will go.. but don't keep silence, it is torturing me..)

Written by,
TEre
1.11am

Dingdelingdingting...

I felt a sweet blush,
The moment you looked at me.
I felt a sweet blush,
The moment you held my hand.
I felt a sweet blush,
The moment you said you miss me.
I felt a sweet blush,
The moment you kissed my lips.

Since the day we met,
I have never forgotten your face,
Since the day we held our hands,
I have never forgotten your warm touch,
Since the day we said goodbye,
I have never kept you away from my mind.
And the day when we kissed,
I still feel like a bliss..

Written by,
Tere
11.1.11

Must you...??

Must you come and go,
Must you come and bring me hope,
Must you go and tear a piece of my fragile soul,
Must you lie that you would miss me even if you don’t?

What if I lost my strength,
To protect myself I don’t want revenge?
What if I lost my mind,
Seek no forgiveness and start to cry?

Must you come and go,
Must you come and bring me hope,
Must you go and tear a piece of my fragile soul,
Must you lie that you would miss me even if you are not?

I kept giving my best,
But it seems I am failing the test,
Seeing the lies in your eyes,
Don’t want an angel in disguise.

Must you come,
Must you go…
Must you tear a piece of my soul..

(to the someone I once believed, I am confused.. Each time you left, you tear a piece of me away..)

Written by,
TEre

For My Little Panda

(Before I met you)

I lived in my loneliness for decades,
And I never met my fate,
In dream I did not find it fascinate,
When love seems to be so faked,
I always woke up feeling sad,
But at night solitude makes me awaked.

I prayed so hard,
And I believe in love..

(Then I met you..)

Thirty-day has gone,
Since then I feel reborn,
I know that time flies,
But time leaves our memories behind.
Now life is not the same,
Simply because you show up as a friend.

Yesterdays are gone,
But my memories is never this strong,
I know what I had done is not wrong,
And you’ll lead me to be so fond.
Life was different since then,
Simply because I’d found you, not just a friend.

To our love,
To our first 30th day,
To the future months,
To the future years,
I kiss you while I am in my tears.
Believe that we will finally be so near.

For our love,
For our First 30th day,
For the future months,
For the future years,
I cherish you my dear,
Wonders that never seems so clear..

…You are my baby Panda.. I love you!!

Written by,
TEre
30days after 090909

Get Over!

Peeping through a tiny hole,

I see such a small world,

Where love is not there,

Seems like nobody there who cares.

I was wandering in a busy street,

Telling my mind to stay always sweet,

Yet my heart is arrowed by poison,

Spreading the venom with no reason.

Then I was totally depressed,

Try to run way from the moment of stress,

If waiting is what I deserved,

Stop it now or make it fast forward.

As I weep alone at night,

I will challenge loneliness for a fight,

Wish I dream of you when I sleep,

Then I would win the fight with a back kick.

I will be better when sun rises anyway,

As morning breeze sends sadness away.

Combine the power of the universe,

It makes all negative thought a big reverse.

Sunlight will pamper me with its heat,

Let’s get re-born with those joyful beats,

Omit the tears which caused by misery,

Today’s beautiful as yesterday is history.

(Face it, get over it, and you will be fine. Devil can’t win over angel. Darkness will be light up when sunrises. I want to cherish you as who you are, and I believe there is a great future.)

Written by,

Tere

Away from Sadness and Loneliness..

Here I am,

Waiting for the game,

Where we meet again,

Things could never be the same.

_____________________________

Perhaps loneliness created sadness,

That switches me out of focus,

With tears nourishing my eyelashes,

Dropping without my consciousness.

_______________________________

To be sad,

To be lonesome,

To be sensitive.

I am always too naïve.

Treating melancholy a big feast.

___________________________

Here I am,

Away from the rain,

Crying alone in pain,

Missing you again and again.

_________________________

Perhaps you appeared to be careless,

Without realizing my emptiness,

Killing my each second with your kindness,

Dragging me out of my senses.

___________________________

To get it over,

To feel happier,

To create laughter,

I wish I were a surfer.

Riding the board like a warrior,

Hugging wind which enlightens my heart from being a worrier.
__________________________________________________

Written by TEre,

Sadness and loneliness will always fade away, I still deserve a great someone as you claimed.. Stay happier and happier Tere..

No one, Nothing...

I am drifting apart,
Far away from you,
you seems fading away in memory,
Yet it seems you are there somewhere,
deep in my mind.
I once said you mean a lot me.
Indeed you are.

Perhaps, time had changed me,
I am stronger now,
As I covered my memory,
Memory which contents you,
Who was once so vivid.
I have not forgotten you,
I have not given you up,
But it seems to be not working anymore,

Somehow...

Knocking on each door,
Which has nobody in there.
I can’t help but feeling abandoned.
When no one shares my drink,
When no one shares the air I breathe in my room,
When no one tells me I shall stop wondering,
Wondering where my soul belongs.
Perhaps to another empty room,
Till someone comes with a knock,

yet I am still one my own.

I am drifting apart,
I am lost,
Just because you are no longer here,

not even there,
Sharing with me.
I miss you…
and you don't know it..

I just feel like screaming..

nothing..

(for again the someone.. You were once so great.. you were once so obvious, but seems to be so unreachable now.. I miss you.. but you are not there anymore..so I guess I had just missing “no one” here..)

Written by TEre

19th May 09

May Eleventh wrote May Tenth..

Sitting alone in a boring room,

my brain cells are not working punctually,

keep flashing slide shows of yesterday,

of you playing with your emotional cares.

Love the way you typed your messages,

wish i could have the smell of your fingertips,

hitting the keys with gentle tabacco taste,

sending the words byte by byte..

As the packets arrived,

my heart beats got stimulated,

receiving romance from the networks,

the heat is felt in every single nerve.

I know I am not in love,

but i know I am full of Love,

though you are far away,

our gap is tighten up with every breathe we take.

Raindrops fill the empty air,

cool down the heat of our summer day,

You heat up my life with love,

Compact it with magnified tenderness and care.

I love the feeling,

Even though it's not in reality,

but this dream looks so clear,

sure it won't end with tears.

Thus I still believe,

my dream is worth to live,

to have someone so far yet so close,

in heart and in our fantasy,

Where dream is actually a realm,

of you and I in this universe..

Written by TEre

(From someone to someone. Are both connected in heart even though they are far apart..? I am not sure about the answer. So what if you know you are already friends? Just let it be...)

May the Eleventh..

Morning..

Chinese word of Wisdom: “A daily planning begins in the morning, a yearly planning starts from spring.”
When morning has broken,
Sunlight emerges from the horizon,
Birds dancing in the sky,
Flowers wake up from the disappearing mist,
Cloud dresses up like snowman,
Contradicting with the blue sky,
Wind cuddles the trees,
And the leaves waves hello,
That’s when the magical moment begins.

Start your day,
Look at the beautiful surrounding,
Embrace the sunlight,
Feel the breeze,
Realize your purpose for the day.
Affirm and say,
What a wonderful world and day.
It’s a wonderful start,
The past is over,
This is my moment.
We all deserve to feel great.

Unless you don’t allow yourself to enjoy this.

Forget and forgive the past,
Learn from it and appreciate the lesson learnt,
Take a new breathe and start a new life.
It begins every morning.

Written by,
TEre

Relationship..

Relationship..
It means connections between people,
Yet it’s personal.
Why?

Everything has a root,
It begins from the nucleus of a cell,
Or an atom from an element.
For relationship,
It all begins from our mind,
Our heart and then our feelings.
Love is an invisible atom of a relationship.
This is the root of being happy, peaceful and divine.

Hatred is the passive role,
It’s a result of imbalance soul.
Humans get to choose to be happier,
And it evolves from your inside.

If you feel peaceful,
You can influent your surroundings to be more beautiful.
Therefore the choice is yours.
It’s easy to feel peaceful,
It’s easy to love,
And it’s easier to feel that you are been loved.

Love the people around you,
Even though they are bad,
Love your strangers,
And you are more beautiful that way.
Love your enemy,
As they teach you how to send love,
Love yourself,
And the universe will return you with the real magic.

Written by Tere

~inspired by Dr. Wayne Dyer (Real Magic)