Think of Me ~ Tere

My 1st youtube song..
"Think of Me" (Phantom of the Opera)
Click on Tere's picture to view..

sadden me..but I live from it..

It's sad but yet glad moment,

as it had really come to an end.

Never thought how confident I am,

never thought how strong I've been.

But it happened.

Just like that!

Sadness to actually symbolized new begins,

and that mean I am stronger now.

I will never be afraid and sad again for these,

more importantly I know who I am,

where I stand and how I am going to be.

Thank you for sadden me,

because I found the truth.

That I will never gonna need that hope anymore.

That I will never be sad about it anymore.

and I will never cry for you anymore.

Be please that I am still gonna treat you well,

but only a nice person that treat me the same.

See the truth,

find the real meaning,

live our own ways.

I am surviving in my way I guess.
(to the someone that sadden me, you are what you are, don't change it. Keep it going! I am going to be fine. I am fine anyway..)

Written by Tere 26 April 08 (00:00)midnight..

Just like that..

It's just like that

Sometimes we can’t help ourselves,
But to have pessimistic thinking,
Over anything that comes out of sudden,
It’s just the way life is,
Don’t blame on it,
or on your luck,
or your destiny.
It’s just the way it is somehow..
Because there are always good and bad.
Bad thoughts overcome good thinking,
Good thoughts overcome bad thinking.
The choice is yours,
You deserve what your will tells you.
You decide what you deserved.
No seas are calm forever,
No skies are always clear.
Same logic applies to life,
No one can be happy every minute,
Nobody can be upset all the time.
Positive thinking improves our lives,
It makes us a better person.
Not perfection,
But at least a step closer to perfect.
Perfection is infinite,
Therefore keep improve as a better one.
As you do so,
You reach a higher stage of humanity.
Life has it’s up and down,
But when you keep improving,
In a way it pushes you higher,
In your life quality,
In your personality,
In humanity.
Life… it seems short,
But it’s meaningful,
And beautiful.
When you know how to realize it,
When you know how you would deserve it,
When you decided that you deserve it.
And when you cherish what is it,
To be yourself,
and continue improving,
being a better person…

Written by Tere (9th Apr 2008)

My March..

You asked me what’s wrong,
I knew I am not strong.
It hurts me like I expected,
That you are far under graded.

Smiles on your face,
Contaminates me like ash,
Muddles my consciousness,
Scattered in my every heartbeats.

Seems like a cursed March,
Seems like a blessed March.

Confusing by the bad and good,
Should I move on?
Or should I stay put?

You appeared with surprises,
Tearing off my loneliness.
Occupied me with hugs,
Filled me with laughers.

Seems like a cursed March,
Seems like a blessed March.

Buzzing me with sweetness and sorrow,
Should I stay drowning?
Or should I just ignore?

You left for your journey,
Detaching from my circle,
Sadden me with the memories,
Pulling me out from a dream.

A curse of March!
A bless of March!
(For the someone I met in this month. You bring joys and surprise in my life but yet you sadden somehow. I will be good, I will be fine, I promise.. It’s just me alone like always anyway..)

Written by,
Tere..

>dream on<

Since so long,
now the chance has arrived,
dream ahead,
sleep tight and keep the dream on.

I was not so observant,
realising my imagination is there,
for crafting dreams of my passion,
concerning of fulfilling a greater life.

It is a journey,
has been tough,
and will be tougher soon.
I take this challenge,
to dare this dream,
to go beyond the horizon,
and take a deep breathe there,
for the unpredictable future..

Wake up now!
I will be fying with my wings,
to where I belong,
to who I care,
for what I deserved to be..

Longing for...

Staying out alone..
picking the boring wind,
I see people walking,
holding hands, smilling brightly.

I have my music on,
listening the lonely tunes,
kissing the warm sunlight.
and my mind lingers where you are,
weeping that you are away.

It's all for you,
I would not mind to be alone,
you are out there somewhere.
I send the air my message,
waving to the sun and moon,
hoping that they reflect to you.

Where ever you are,
I am here for you,
hugging your sihouette,
as I hardly know how you are.
You know it's for you,
I sing,
I write,
I am here longing for you..

Written by,
Terence c.w.t
07.07.07

What's Going On?

I was busy,
I was tired,
everything gets messy.
my hair, my backpack,
my bed, my room..
I am so scared..
while I am still all alone..

Roses of the Phantom,
papers from my work,
clothes in my closet,
jumbling up in my mind..
I become so disorganised.
I am so helpless..
and I still walking all alone..

I could not sleep at night,
I miss you..
I slept,
and yet I dreamt of you.

It's all messed up...
What's going on??
What happen to me?
I ponderred...
looking at the blank wall,
as I thought,
there is a picture of you.

What's going on with me?
venturing my own mind...

(I was busy, yet I started to slack. I did not update my blog as I had. *Sigh!* I had wasted all the time. But I thought of you sometimes and I am glad...)

Written by Terence c.w.t.

The Prince Day...

I declared the 1st day of February each year,
as The Prince Day (My Day),
people that knows me would know about this.
A day that I am reborned again,
for another challenging year,
for another chapter of new begining,
since 1982...
over and over again...

It is always been a great day,
that I would enjoy....
As time flies,
I grow..
As I grow,
I learn to cherish more..
more of my pass.
more of my present,
more of what I am expecting for my future..

This is the day,
the day that I always think of life.
As I have always trying to figure out,
the true meaning of life,
and I realise that age is just a number.
Life does not depend on these numbers,
only us,
ordinary human does...
We judge everything by numbers.
It does not help to measure thing the way it is in realistic,
it's just helping us to imagine by comparison.

Another day is awaiting,
another chance is approaching.
I want to have a better life,
I want to chase my dream,
I would fight for what I deserved,
I can be better and better...
Starting from this Prince Day..
I know I will...

(for my birthday, I want to thank my friends, I wish to share that I will be better and better with all your wishes and cares surrounding me. I enjoy every single moment as I know that you are always here for me..I love my life as I love you too....)

Written by,
Terence C.W.T..

1st Feb 2007

Our Staff Party 22 Jan 2007

Everyone in my company was wearing a mask gathering in a club for our annual staff party. To me it means more like a farewell party because I know that this is going to be the last staff party for some of my fellow colleagues..

I am happy for the gathering but at the same time upset for the leaving. I am quite sure that I am kind of too emotional when talk about friends leaving me. After all we had been working together for a year plus.. I always cherish the moment that we are together and I wish you all the best no matter where you go. I will be good and I will learn more and be strong. Thanks for the time we spent together and also thanks for the things you taught me. I will always remember you as my dearest colleagues and friends. I will miss you!! Don't forget me!!

(People meet and people leave in our life. I always think that eventhough some of them left, they stay in my heart and mind. I always remember those who exist in my life simply because I care about them, and i cherish the relationship. To the someone that is leaving, I will think of you often. Great memories live in my heart till the day it stops beating...I miss ya!!)

Terence C.W.T... with Loves...

Thoughts...

Some thoughts that I would like to share here with my friends or anyone that read this. I know there is no perfection in this world. God creates human with flaws.. May be God never even created us, hmmm... what do you think?(no offence to those with strong believe)

Life is always hard, I always think that it's the journey that's important to us. We are all borned with flaws. I don't believe in perfection, this is because it doesn't exist at all. I am not trying to create chaos in your mind, but we have to accept the truth that human natual is sometimes tumbling to the ugly side. We make mistakes in life but the main point is not to blame on what we had done, it's just part of the journey that we must go through. After all we learn from it. When I say I don't believe in perfection, I don't mean that we should not try to be better anymore. Human is confused in a way. We are all unique in a way. What I am trying to point out is nobody has exactly the same thinking as it's depending on time and conditions.

Variention explains the best in this point. That is why some people complains about what the others wear in teh street and he or she never thought that there are also someone else think the saem ways towards them. We can never expect everyone to like the same thing. You might be a fans of Madonna and I might just prefer Christina better. You may prefer still wearing beggy jeans while skinny jeans is the latest fashion "must have". It all depend..

Sometimes it's our natual to complain about things that we don't like but we will never know that at the same time the other people might be okay with it. Mental and emotion play an important part here too. That is why it makes everyone different. No matter how good you are, you are still borned with flaws. I am sure that we can not change it. Just don't think too much about this issue, live your own life as you should be responsible to your concience.

Remember that no one is perfect and outer form does not guarantee inner beauty in term of judging someone. I believe this!! People always takes things for granted, this is our flaw. But life goes on. There is no perfection but it doesn't mean that we should not try to acheive a better humanity. Whoever and whatever you are, stay nice and be a person with great inner beauty. That's what I mean by a meaningful life..


Written by,
Terence C.W.T.

Year-end sickness (welcoming Spring)..

It's always blue when it comes to end of a year,

sadness, depressed, lonliness...

Normally I count the days I had wasted,

sigh for the foolish moment I had..

This year is a year full of adventure.
I lost granny during Chinese New Year,

Flew back to work in Singapore,

after my only "celebration" back to hometown.

March was the most challenging month,

For MOSAIC M.F.,

but I got to watch Jason Mraz in concert,

I learnt a lot from the busy month,

gain lot of experience at work too,

slowing down after that.

Most wonderful July,

Yes, the FIFA World Cup in Germany,

I enjoyed..

SO much..

I was there in Europe...

Germany and France!!

My unforgettable journey,

imagine Eiffel Tower,

it was so nice, exciting and novel,

different culturals,

different lifestyles,

different climates,

different colours..

Dream ended,

busy again,

BayBeat(July) was another busy month,

from the experience I gained,

it's getting easy but still lot of hard work..

Store reallocation was another big thing,

new environment,

new styles,

new location,

the only thing remains is old people..

moving on..

My first trip to Bangkok, Thailand.

Hot and crowded,

my only description,

friendly people,

softly speaking and wonderful massage,

I enjoyed..

again another journey..

It was actually a good year to me,

forgetting about all those sad issues,

I mean of course..

Life continues,

people age,

Spring is always ahead,

however Autumn and Winter are still waiting...

It goes on and on....

Hope the coming year is better for me, for my family, my friends, my planet Earth and my future...Welcome 2007, I will venture it all!!

Written by,

Prince T.C.W.T..

Bangkok, Thailand (28 Nov 06~1 Dec 2006)

One of the common scence in the city, traffic jam. Building on the left is probably the tallest building here in Thailand.

See.. I am here.. Thailand! Thailand!

Magnificent Gold in colour!

I visited the legendary Giant Sleeping Buddha!

The Grand Palace!!

Mushroom trees all around?? Nice Bonsai..

Magnificent...

remembering that I was there...

This few days trip again had enlarged my sight and knowledge. About human civilisation, cultural, life style and definately the wonderful Thai dishes.. I am glad the trip brought me so much experience and knowledge and advantures. Certainly I will visit Thailand again.. Thanks to Joerg, my friend showing me around. I was always misundertsood as a Thai boy that few days, therefore I wear these shirts and tie to show a little bit of differences haha!! Also thanks to the foot massagers that gave me such a wonderful and relaxing foot massage session!! Kopkoonkap!

Time...

Time is the most important thing in life.
perhaps every part of life..
As we are getting older and older each day,
as we step every footstep,
forward or backward.
As the second hand of the clock ticks,
as my fingers hit every character on the keyboard,
as our eyes blink for moisture,
as the sun rises and sets at the horizon.

No matter what,
time keeps updating..
We can only follow,
sometimes we pause,
sometimes we slower down,
we slack..
Yet time keeps going..

I can't think of a way to stop time,
I can't think of a way to turn it back.
so I keep going,
slack sometimes,
slower down sometimes,
pause sometimes...

So when? when does it end?
the answer is infinite..
therefore I keep walking,
I keep blinking my eyes,
I keep pondering days and nights,
and I am still here..
living as what I am..

Written by,
Terence c.w.t..
14 Nov 06

time never rest, we do.. I keep looking forward and back, as I realise the movement..

11 October 2006

It's been a long time since I last updated my blog. I know there might not be someone that want to read this, but I guess it's all mine so I wouldn't care. We are having some bad air here in Singapore, it's even worst back there in Kuching. Meanwhile, life has been poluted by these bad air quality too I guess. It's so demoralising when I'm still stucked at work everyday with tiring and boring lifestyle.

I was wondering about my new begining. A starting point for another life of mine just can't seen to appear so soon. I waited and waited. I know there is no expiry date for this but I am so impatient now. I want it to happen sooner. Loneliness is still my closest friend. Unlimited amount of complaints are filling my mind. They are killing my patience and my determination.

What do I need now? Where am I standing? I know what life is. But I can't seem to find the right one for myself.. What should I do to make it right?

There are so many things I don't want to leave behind here. I guess I need a lot of courage for this. Leaving behind some friends, family and feeling... I am eagle to fly away, try my luck in another place far far out there for a better and challenging life. That's why flying away is in my mind. New begining might be hard but I guess I shall feel the freshness from there.

What I wonder today..?
What I want for life..?
What I will get..?
I am doubtful..
I am lost..

It's been so long since I think of all these life topics.. I am not sure what the future would be..but i struggle so hard for a better life, looking for the answer that sactisfies my point of view and dream.. I will stay cool... I know I will..

Another Chapter of life

I am doubtful about the meaning of love sometimes. It happens to my best friends right in front of my eyes. It shocked me that their love is actually hurting them. Isn't 'Love' supposed to be wonderful? Isn't it supposed to be making a great and delightful discovery of our lives?

Experiences of life is unmeasureable, love is only part of all these. But it happens to be one of the most important element of life. I know that it hurts sometimes but it somehow cures. I guess after all it's all depends on how we determine the meaning deep in our very own heart, just like how we determine the meaning of our lives and living.

Sometimes I wonder, why am I doing all these? Writting about my thoughts.. Not that I am expert or what, but for everyone out there, life is too short for us to waste. Try thinking of all the people striving for lifes when they suffer from brutal sickness. No matter how painful they are, they strive their very best for survival. This is what I saw from my own sister. She was so young and innocent. Suffering from bone cancer was really a big tragedy for her and my whole family. After we lost her for years, I realised that life should be filled with love. I was young and I didn't understand how much it impacts on my life. Now that I know I should had given more love to my beloved sister but it's all too late (weep). I regret!

For people who are still there with their love one, I hope you cherish them. Don't live your life with such regrets after lossing them. Indulge yourselves in your life and love. Be responsible to the people around you and to yourself. It's not a difficult task but a simply thought and move to achieve. When it's time to let go, let it go.. It can be beautiful sometimes rather than to stay hurt. Love can be so great.. I believe..!!

for the someone out there, I know I am not expect being a judge of what life and love mean. But at least I learn to cherish it and live it with pride.. It's really so sad to have any regrets from any chapter of our life. The most important thing is we are responsible for our own life and we do it with a simple thoughts of loving. Love can be greater that way I believe!


Written by,
Terence c.w.t.
12 Aug 06